i saw jojo's entry and was so happy to realise tt there is really someone out there who does really care fer mi. i haf always tot tt i was merely a passerby in their life. i wanna tell this to all those who really love mi:

life's like a cup of bitter coffee.
it will never turn sweet unless
you add sugar to it.
i'm the coffee
and you are the sugar.
thanks for making my life
sweet forever.

and this is to my (very very very very) * infinity besties out there [joanna, lynnn, ling and ting]:

we share laughter and sadness once
we laught, we cry, we hug and we share
we were there for one another before
we had lots of wonderful memories
and all these are enough for me to smile through the long road

i want you all to know that
i do really care for you all
perhaps at times i wasn't really that good at showing
but i really do care

thanks for the everything
the things that we all had touch
the things that we all had share using
the things that we can never buy with money

you all really touch my life
and it's wonderful
sometimes i thought
was it really a blessing or is it a disaster
oh no
it's really a present for me

i love you all
no matter as a friends or sisters
you all were already part of me
you all are someone who make my life different

joanna
i promise that i'll always be there
no more worry
cause now i know
you care and you love
and i've just this one thing to tell you
i care for you too
i love you too
look for me if you really need to
and i'll always be there

lynnn
you have always been my confidant
and yet i took it at granted once
i'm sorry
you are the best xiao mei that i've ever had
i do treasure the relationship we had
best buds and best sister forever

ling
we share laughter the most
thanks for the everything you've help me
you were also there when i was lost
i couldn't help you alot
and i'm sorry
i've tried to make the best out of me for you
yet to no avail at times
we had sisterly love in us
and i know i care for you too
thank you

ting
i know that i was harsh to you once
i wanted to help you too
we've all tried
but we've all failed
if this was really what you wanted
i suppose that there shouldn't be
anymore objection from all your buds
jia you
best friends for life

and lastly, this is special written to my dad, my mum, my brother and those whom i've really cared:

papa
i do love you
just that i don't know how to express it
i do care what you say
because you mean alot to me
i don't wanna start an argument with you
because it saddens you
i wanted it all fine for the both of us
cause i really care for you alot

mummy
i love you too
i know i'm 3rd in your heart
but i also know that you're 1st in mine
so i'm sorry for whatever things that has
caused sorrow in you
i'll open my ears, eyes and heart to hear and see you
i'll block the temper that stain us apart

benjie
i've never realise that i can't be happy without you
untill that incident
i'll protect you
because you are scare
and because i know you need me
i love you even more
don't leave me again
we did quarrel nt only a few times
but we will soon be fine
cause we need the shoulder of one another

the ones whom i really love
thanks for everything
i was happy knowing you were there
i didn't care for forever
at least we were there once
it's okay if we didn't show it out
because we know that we do cared for one another
i love you guys
and please love me like the way i love you all too

still feeling quite sick in the morning bt nw feeling much better le. todae no wrk fer mi to do. sianz :( so decided to clear the mess in my room.. nw so clean n tidy le and it's all thnx to mi :) haha. i noe it's lame.

pratice guitar again fer 1/2 hr oni. still couldn't play well.

nth to do again so on com n started chatting wif frenz :)

ltr evening nid to go ah ma's hse. sian :( go there oso nth to do. oni eat dinner den watch tv. dunnoe y nid to go there every week sia. haiz.

first of all wish xiao mei gd luck fer todae's performance :)

wake up 6.15am in the morning. brush teeth and wash face den change clothes. meet joanna at 400+ de 7-11 bus stop at 7.15am but she was late as usual. hahas :) ate ban mian in the morning. i treat jojo cuz i own her money. lols.

took 804 to northpoint after eating den change to mrt. meet the other mentors and mentees at kallang station. like last week, mi n jojo was late there but considering with other mentors and mentees, mi n jojo is early liao lor. hahas :)

todae had dragon-boating.. mariel was the leader. she brought her frenz along n i sat beside her in the boat. hate dragon-boating but love the rocking in the boat. wee :) very fun lor. hahaha. leave there at about 12 noon bahz. den mi, jojo, cheng hoon, jerlin n shi yan took taxi to katong swimming complex to bath. hahaha. lame lor. we dun wan to bath at the kallang there cuz the toilet very dirty n squeezy lor.

after tt we took bus 12 to bugis den all of us part. mi n jojo took train back to yishun. after tt we took bus 169 to her father's shp to eat. i ate a plate of fried rice and jojo ate a plate of mee fun. she order 1 more plate of my fav. veggie - kang kong :) the luch was free. hehex. thnx jojo n her family.

came back to yishun by bus 169 again alone. so tired. reach hm bout 5pm. start to practice the guitar. rem wat paul had taught mi n jojo on thurs :) after tt, come n play com n watch tv at the same time. nw mum went out to buy dinner fer mi n brother. sian.

feeling feverish n suan all over. sick :( + sick :( + sick :(

it's nt the 1st time le. can i noe hu i m to u???

first of all, happy belated birthdae to shiqi, russell and kopi and lastly, happy birthdae to kenneth the "shemale". hahaha :)

okay.. todae had cognitive. finally can change team le. otherwise it will be the dunnoe hw mani week wif "snakie" and "kuai tai" le. after change team, i nw same group as huisi, ivan, athena and zhang chen.

after sck, went to junction 8 wif joanna to meet russell and kopi to celebrate their very "belated birthdae". hahaha. reach hm at about 7+.

ytd went to watch 'mortuary' wif the same group of frenz again. it's rather nice but quite scary.

nw in class. come to sck too early. jojo din come to sck.. so i come to sck alone todae. SIANZ :l

joanna.. dun leave mi alone with those guys again :(

wrk ytd. start at 9am to 7pm. tired sia. wake up at 6am and slp at 12 midnight. ytd whole dae at towel stand, lye my stationary post like tt. stand the whole dae. leg so suan nw. help jonathan n yang yi ask whether rasa still nid people mahz and they sae no nid. hahas :)

tis morning sae dun wan to go out bt still in the end went out. cuz my 2 mei mei wan to return mi money. hahas :) yuling n mi acc baoling go piece her ear den mi n baoling acc yuling to mrt station. i din noe tt i was actually tt gd de. always mi is the one hu acc ppl de. keke ;P

after tt mi n baoling walk at the basamalam near my hse. after tt she acc mi go hm take guitar den we proceed on to her hse le. she helping mi to tune the guitar back but end up another string break. hahas. den in the end, she has to take it back to her sck ask the teacher help mi fix the guitar. jaja.

juz nw kerrie call n ask mi whether can wrk tmlr mah n i sae yes. finally can work le after 3 weeks of waiting. hrm. happy yet sian cuz hu like to work bt when thought of the money tt i can use to buy alot of things, i happy again. hahas :)

tmlr free den blog again bahz. nw haf to stp pen le :P

went out wif yang yi, joanna, jarvis, yan cheng and seng kai ytd again. went to the prata place near joanna's mother shop to eat. Prata was nice but too hard fer mi to chew. hahaha :) den i chew untill veri full sia. lols ;P

after that we all went to watch pirates of caribbean at sun plaza. all of us sit at the wrong sit cuz somebody else took out place and den we took other ppl place. hahas. mi sat between yang yi n joanna. the show very nice but i dun really quite understand the ending. so did captain jack die? there should be a part three coming out soon bahz.

reach home bout 12.30pm. by the time i bath come out, it was 1pm le. sleepy zZzZzZzZz... happy after that cuz of something happen. hahas.

todae wake up at 8+am but den dun feel lye waking up so continue to lie on the bed till 10.30am den crawl out of my bed. wash up. den eat the breakfast tt mummy buy fer mi. tok back to my father when eating. he stupid irritating lah. everytime lye to delibrately look fer trouble de. i mean if we could care less about what the other has to do. wouldn't it be nice. he's not trying to be naggy but tried to be "naughty" i called it. wat's the problem lah. early in the morning den keep disturbong ppl de.

sitting in front of the com now. nth to do den started blogging about wat happen ytd n tis morning. brother gg out to sck cuz he gt flag dae. hahas. dunnoe wat time he will be back. dun feelm like gg out cuz mi have been out the whole week so todae n tmlr wan to rest.

nth to rite le. stp pen. *wink ^.^ ,

ytd went to watch re-cycle after sck wif joanna, yang yi and seng kai. show quite nice lah bt some part very sudden and scary. hahaha :) den tt stupid yang yi keep act scare in the cinema. lols :P after tt went home. not very happy bout something happen ytd.. dun wish to record it dwn.

nw in class preparing powerpoint slides for later presentation. same team as jorny, mr.tiger beer, syaffiq n val. todae on enterprise. sianz :( hahas

morning wake up bout 10.25 am. couldn't slp last night. oni manage to slp at 5+ lye tt. after tt joanna n huiting went to buy breakfast den i stay at joanna hse wash myself up. she bought minced meat noodle fer mi. very nice :) hahas. after tt went to meet yang yi again. omg. 3 consecutive daes meet him le. lols. so sianz of his face le. joking nia. hui ting straight away went home.

den mi n yang yi pei joanna go buy her new handphone. wait fer her very long. so mi n yang yi go find place to sit dwn first. he keep toking bout hw handsome he is. omg! feel like puking nw. hahas :) he keep toking bout his waiting list. hahas. so bhb!

finally joanna finish all the procedure. after tt, i went to look fer baoling to get my guitar. $90 sia. hahas :) pocket gt hole liao. saw those bb guys on the wae - jia gui, jerome, ze en, alvin n the others i dunnoe de. lols :) reach home finally.

started to play the guitar. fun lor. after tt went to play the com le. wrote testi fer jia gui cuz he ask mi to. nw chatting wif yang yi in msn too. he again. omg! hahaha.

ltr gg out fer dinner wif family. yea. hope gt nice food again though i noe there whouldn't be one. hahaha. hao le. nth to rite liao. wait fer my next post bahz :)

nw at joanna's hse.. staying over here. juz nw she treat us to her parent's shop and eat. so nice of her yah. hahas :) bt seriously the food are really nice sia. she even treat us to eat chilli crab sia. hahas. yang yi, seng kai, yan cheng, hui ting n mi n of cuz joanna were there.. saw joanna's ab fer the first time bt din't really caught a good look at him.

something crop up there too. hahas :) hui ting found out that her handphone was missing. we tried to called the phone bt nobody wan to pick up the phone. finally the founder called us and told us that she will leave the handphone at bishan mrt bt when we reach there, we found out that it's actually ang mo kio mrt station sia. make us walk so many times. hahas :)

after that we went to watch movie 'superman'. the front part was so boring lor. i actually fell asleep. lols. oni the middle n last part was nice bt everything like very exergerate lye tt leh. hahaha :)

after watchin finish the movie, it's already 12+ le. den no more night bus so mi, joanna n yang yi walk back hm. of cuz i folo joanna back hm lar. huiting was already under joanna's block waiting fer us. hahas :)

nice dae :)

went out wif yang yi, seng kai, yan cheng and joanna ytd to bugis. bought a cross necklance fer jarvis b.d. present. todae gg to upper thomson - joanna's parent shop. joanna treating us fer dinner sia. the same ppl will be there bt tis time gt 1 more hui ting. toking back to ytd... it was fun but alittle bit tired lar. the guys couldn't decide on the things they want to buy fer jarvis. first sae want to buy shirt, then shoe then jacket. so ma fan. lols :) took a few photo wif them in the train - my favourite. they sae wan to take neoprint de bt in the end nv take. they bluff mi sia. wahahaha :)

went to bugis wif betty and ting ting on sundae. spent about $20 oni.. bought a new watch, a pair of earring, 1 retro hairband and 1 orange belt. went to took neoprints wif them too. ting ting was ill and keep saying tt she wanted to vomit. find it quite irritating at times but still poor her lah.

ytd ask baoling help mi buy guitar. thought it was quite cheap cuz if buy frm outside dunnoe nid hw much.

coming monday ish jarvis's bd le. mi become the organizer to ask everyone who wan to share money to buy present from him. hahas :) like to buy present fer ppl bt always no money to buy present fer myself. lols :P